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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

the break up.

i have to admit, this isn't a conversation i've been wanting to have. in fact, i've been putting it off for far too long. i always seem to find one excuse or another. & even though it's all i've thought about lately, even though i've played the scene over & over a thousand times in my head, even though i've planned out exactly what i've wanted to say... now that the moment is here, now that you & i are finally face-to-face, the words seem to escape me.

this definitely isn't an easy situation. but i have to admit, you were never right for me. i think, even in the very beginning, deep down, i knew that this would never really work. but, it was hard to ignore those sparks. even now, the sparks are still there. it's like i can hear them calling my name. & seeing you, just sitting there, looking soooo good, makes this even harder. i guess that's why they say "breaking up is hard to do."

i wish we could still be friends, but you & i both know that that never works out. no, no... it's not you, it's me. see, i'm just not that strong - occasional get-togethers, watching you with other people, all along pretending i'm no longer interested in you... yeah! i don't think that would last very long. pretty soon we'd be inseperable, once again. but i'm serious about it this time. that's why i think, no, i KNOW i need a completely clean break. you are just too much of an addiction for me to handle.

you've probably already noticed, but lately, i've been spending less & less time with you. slowly, but surely, i have been trying to ease you out of my daily life. &, i'm proud (although a little sad too) to admit, at this writing i have gone 1 week, 5 days, 12 hours & 37 minutes without you. honestly, you probably haven't even missed me, but i have missed you. & i will continue to miss you, every day of my life, because you will always have a piece of my heart. but this time, it really is goodbye. cherry coke, dr. pepper & regular coke, oh how i'll miss you, but really & truly, this has to be the end of our relationship, it's time to go our seperate ways. i just hope i have the strength to live without you... i'll definitely be in need of a re-bound relationship.

18 comments:

MYSUESTORIES said...

Have you considered Facebook as a rebound relationship?

Ashlee said...

We broke up a little over a year ago. It was tough, but I made it out alive and felt so much better.

A visit to the in laws last week resulted in a major cave in. The next day my stomach was so swollen I couldn't button my pants!

And just like that our love affair was over!

Tiffany said...

I SO hear you on this! I have the exact same addiction - and I've tried and tried and we just keep getting back together.

But a recurring theme keeps coming up everywhere I turn this week - things like quit making excuses, don't be afraid of discipline. Be accountable to yourself and nobody else. And now your break-up. Geez, I guess I'm slowly getting the message that it's time I do something about it. It's going to be hard - but I'm going to try this time, harder than ever - and maybe we can break it off, too.

Shannon said...

how I wish I could break the bond between myself and my diet coke... but... I just can't - our relationship is much too strong! :(

Stacie said...

OK, I had to come out of lurkdom on this one..Kelly, you just take yourself to the kitchen and wash your mouth out with soap--that is the dirtiest thing I have ever heard!! If you quit, there will be more cans on the store shelves and I will be forced to take them home with me. Don't do it!! Seriously, good luck, I made it 40 days at Lent without my bubbles, but I have never been so happy to see Easter come!

Amy said...

Good luck. Maybe seltzer can help you if you start serious withdrawl...

the hogan's said...

I need to break up with DC but I cant bring myself to do it...your giving me motivation!

Suz Broughton said...

CHerry Diet Coke is a good rebound soda.

Angry Julie Monday said...

I broke up with my Monster Energy drinks last week. I drank one before a run last Thursday and I felt awful. I decided that it was the last straw.

Melissa said...

We broke up 1 year 1 month 2 weeks 3 days 6 hours ago. I must say I don't miss it now. It was hard at first, but I do feel much better. I quit caffeine and soda when I found out I was pregnant. After I had my baby, I decided to stick with it- Good luck letting go!

Denise said...

That was a cute post...I thought you were breaking up with blogging at first!!

the BLAH BLAH BLAHger said...

Dieet Coke is my longest relationship. Are you giving IT up, too? No caffeine? Are you sure???

Rose said...

I am in the same situation right now, my diet pop was making me feel sick (I think it's the aspartame) and regular pop is just too many calories and sugar. I crave the sweet and the carbonation, but find I can make do drinking iced tea instead, and I drink alot more coffee now instead too. I'm not sure if this was a smart trade, but for now, if I have to go pop-less, I'll do what I have to! Good luck

heather said...

You are stronger than I will ever be. I simply can't let my beverages go.

Holly said...

I completely feel your pain. I kicked the habit while I was pregnant (not very well though..I cheated quite frequently) but as soon as he was born I really kicked it. It has been 2 months and I still crave it constantly. I can't tell you how many times I have wanted to grab my husbands drink and take a sip. Good luck (and your Charlie would be perfect for my Hobie...I love babies who have those perfect kissable cheeks)

Shannon & Eli said...

Oh kelly. I kicked this habit (actually all carbonation) on January 1st at midnight. Last month I still had withdrawals...But I am proud to say that 6 months later I don't crave it one bit! Water for me thanks!

Rebecca Davis said...

broke up with all sorts of coke valentine's day of this year. my sub is poland springs flavored sparkling... but only occasionally. i thought i would feel much better, but i really don't... maybe all caffeine will be next. thanks for the post!

Jackson's Mommy said...

Hi Kelly,
I clicked on your blog from the create your own experience blog and I fell in love with it immediately. I think it is safe to say that you have gotten me through a horrible day at work today. Thank you for that!!